Monday, May 12, 2014

ku bertanya

ku bertanya - adam AF

Adakah diriku kau tak perlu lagi
Adakah cintaku kau tak perlu lagi
Adakah dirimu dah berubah hati terhadap diriku
Adakah insan lain bertakhta di hatimu
Hinggakan dirimu mengubah cintamu
Manakah janjimu yang kau beri dulu kepada diriku
Kau pernah berkata cintamu adalah selama-lamanya
Bulan menjadi saksi pada malam itu
Kau kata kau cinta
Sayangku dengarlah rintihan hatiku
Ingin kau kembali seperti dahulu
Kenangan di jiwa membuat ku rindu kepada dirimu
Kau pernah berkata cintamu adalah selama-lamanya
Bulan menjadi saksi pada malam itu
Kau kata kau cinta
Kiranya diriku kau tak perlu lagi
Simpanlah kenangan cinta kita di hati
Walaupun sukar, ku akur kali ini
Biarlah ku pergi
Maafkanlah ku bertanya
~ this song i dedicate to u MR M.A.S.A
> sedih kan?so u know how i feel for what u have done, for the last 2 months until now, keep hanging on our relationship, one by one u hide, after this what u want to hide? adakah ini satu permainan utk awk kt sye, sorry i think this is the best way to talk, cause u never text me to know how i was, even u know that im sick, xde pun stu yg awak tnye, sihatkah? praktikal mcm mne? da selamat sampai?(okay cut it off cause u will never know) u being such a stranger to me, no longer my baby boo, my sweat hubby, kekasih hati sye or even my future husband, cause u're same like others hanya manis pada kata2 tapi tidak pada realitinya, so i think u are just my pendusta hati, its hurt the most bila melibatkan fmly, terima kasih awak juga telah melukakan hati keluarga sye mungkin juga hati mama awak mungkin juga keluarga awak yg lain. thanks for a million times or maybe infinity.. what u have done is not match with ur age..sedih bila mengenangkan balik adakah sye yg berslh dlm hubungan kita ni, i think only me who is protecting our relationship but not u, what do u think? i guess u never thought about that right? in fact,u are saying that i'm the one INSIST in this problem when i try to fix it so we are not getting far away, hello boy think back what u said before for stick together what will happen onwards in fact u're the one who broke the promises, keep saying 'how can i live without u' maybe its just a word for u but not for me, thanks to u, u just prove it to me that u're not good enough to be an IMAM in future,dan awak juga telah membuktikan yg awak seorng yg tidak menyahut cabaran to show u 're good enough. i know that i'm not perfect but at least i try to be. as u said u want to discuss back after my study and i will keep my promise that i will wait for u until my last study, wait for u to pick me up but after 6/6/14 no call from u that means it will be our last anniversary of one year relationship. oh yaaa last but not least terima kasih awak telah menjatuhkan maruah sye dgn membuat sye terhegeh2 giler babeng punye kt awak...
btw thnks for being a good boyfriend for the first 8 months, that time you're the best couple i ever had, but after that only u know the answers..assalammualaikum w.b.t
luahan hati si lurus bendul yg setia pd yg tak sudi,huh -_-
tuesday 13 May 2014, 3.03 am

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Dream

Call your name in my dreams
Wish you will hear my voice
The voice that misses you
The voice that wanted you so much

But,
I can only call your name in my dreams
Just in dreams
Cause i shouldn't show desperate
To all around me

Cause i don't want to show my weakness on you
And i need to be tough for this
How much that i need you
Dreaming about our future
But.. Its just in a dream

Dear precious night,
Please don't wake me up on this beauty dream
Just let me dream as i can

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Hatiku

Hati,
Sabarlah engkau
Ku tahu kau juga tahu
Kita sama-sama pernah laluinya
Kita boleh b'tahan

Hati,
Sabarlah engkau
Ku tahu kau terluka
Ku tahu banyak yg kau lalui
Sabarlah selagi itu yg kau perolehi

Hati,
Tidak semua kau mampu
Tidak semua yang kau tahu
Mereka bersuka ria
Kau berduka lara

Hati,
Untuk apa kau bersedih?
Sedangkan mereka berbahagia
Untuk apa kau menyalahkan diri?
Sedangkan mereka tidak peduli

Hati,
Yakinlah tidak selamanya kau begini
Yakinlah ada hikmah disebaliknya
Yakinlah akan ada bahagia menjemputmu
In shaa ALLAH, Dia Maha Adil

Be tough my dear eventhough you're alone :')

11.49 p.m 13.03.14

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

lets the picture speak

biar gambar yang berbicara




i have to when the time is come




this is what i want to do 

this is what i was towards you


this is what i think when we are far

only this i have now and forever

Monday, February 24, 2014

Dear God

Dear God,
please hold me tight,
i have no more strength to face this test
tired to cry about things that i can imagine what will happen next
tired to heard the same comment about me

Dear God,
am i not worth to be happy ever after?
am i too choosy?
am i that kind of person?
am i that saucy?
to family?

Dear God,
is this the route that i need to face?
why am i need to fight with my mother?
why most of my brothers put the blame on me?
is it wrong for me to said what i feel?
is it all the wrongs are come from me?
is it my fault?
is it true what they said about me?
the truth from the bottom of my heart
i feel tired,very tired
so tired and tired
hope one day it will become okay

Dear God,
i know You know what the best for me
forgive me Ya Rabb, Ya Ghaffaar
please ease me
keep my Iman in the first place
so i wont stranded to a negative things....
:'( :'(

truthlyfrommyheart
time : 1.13 a.m
25/2/14

Saturday, February 22, 2014

Luahan

Keluarga,kawan atau kekasih hati?

Keluarga,
Ibu dan ayah
Abang dan kakak
Kakak dan adik

Keluarga,
Muhrim yang halal
Mahram dalam keluarga
Ikatan yang abadi

Kawan,
Dulu dan kini
Kanak-kanak hingga remaja

Kawan,
Suka dan duka
Tawa dan ria
Rahsia tersimpan

Kawan,
Berkongsi cerita
Pahit dan manis
Bergaduh bermasam muka
Mengajar diri berdikari

Kekasih hati,
Pertemuan dua jiwa
Menyulam kasih dan sayang
Rasa disayangi,dihargai

Kekasih hati,
Hanya dua insan
Berkongsi rasa
Rasa bahagia

Namun,
Antara mereka
Pasti ada terluka
Rasa disisih
Tidak diperlukan
Berkecil hati
Bermasam muka

Antara mereka,
Keluarga,kawan dan kekasih hati
Mana didahulukan
Pilih disana,disini menolak
Pilih disini,disatu lagi terasa
Pilih disatu lagi pihak,
Disana berjauh hati

Apakah pilihan yang ada
Jikalau boleh ku pilih semuanya
Namun permainan hati dan perasaan,
Sukar ditilik,
Sukar untuk memilih

Jikalau boleh ku undur masa
Mahu juga ku diamkan segala
Lebih baik memerap rasa
Dari dibiar ia dicarik

Jikalau boleh ku hentikan waktu
Mahu saja ku berlari jauh
Tanpaku menoleh kebelakang
Jikalau boleh ku lakukan semua
Pasti tidak kurasa tersepit

Sungguh ku terseksa tersepit,
Berada di tengah hati dan perasaan,
Logik dan rasa,
Sungguh dugaan yang mencabar,

Ya ALLAH,
Terhadap-Nya ku serahkan segala
Terhadap-Nya ku pohonkan cara
Terhadap-Nya ku mohonkan restu
Terhadap-Nya ku pasrahkan semua

Hanya pada-Mu cintaku yang sejati
Hanya diri-Mu mengerti segalanya
Izinkan aku hidup bahagia
Selagi masih ada sinar harapan

Myideamycreateroriginalbyme S.S.A